Trauma isn’t always caused by one big event. It can be multiple events that seem small to the observer, but can feel as heavy as the world to the one carrying it.
We were elated to see the two red marks
Happiness galored as we awaited the little spark
Beholden to the almighty for the blessing divine
And till 20 weeks the scans were all fine
Then the doctors revealed the dreaded news
‘Cleft lip and palate’, a gust of torment filled the blues.
I hid it from everyone, to keep myself sane
For words of sympathy would add to the pain
Hormonal changes would intensify the rage
My love for my child did give me courage
And all the struggle was really worthwhile
When Ethan was born, our baby, our smile.
His eyes so beautiful, he felt softer than silk
But my boy found it hard to sip in mumma’s milk
I had no time for postpartum self-care,
And wherever I went, people would stare
Some said it was a curse from previous life
Tantrums and suggestions were, yes, so rife.
As parents we had to be strong amidst the worry
Our 6 months old boy, had to go through a surgery
The stiches were fresh, so his arms were restrained
I can’t imagine, how badly it must have pained
We had to keep him safe, to prevent infections
He gave us strength, with all his cute reactions.
The second surgery happened when he was one
The palate was reconstructed of our darling son
By this time, he started recognising the bright and dim
The sight of nurse and doctors continued to scare him
A trauma dreadful and his anxiety rose high
Seeing a hospital, he would often scream and cry.
There may be surgeries multiple, all in a line
Have faith and trust that everything will be fine
Some kids have complications along with palate and lip cleft
While others are bullied in school and alone they are left
We, as parents, have to make the world an all-inclusive place
And embolden our child to make it through the phase.
And yes, we are grateful for the bundle of happiness, our boy
He brightens our world, motherhood is indeed, the greatest joy.
P.S. The picture is a digital art made by Rini Rajan, depicting her son, Ethan.