This January, Maybe…

 This January, maybe I’ll start watching my figure,

wearing cool clothes to make me look slimmer

This January, maybe I won’t be so needy,

learn to conduct myself in class,

Learn not to say the wrong thing at the wrong time,

struggle with my words and fall and crash.

This January, maybe I will learn to be more reserved;

This January, maybe I won’t be so awkward,

fiddle with my fingers and gracelessly dawdle.

This December, maybe I’ll realize there’s nothing wrong with that dress that makes me look a little chubby,

This December, maybe I’ll realize it’s a gift to be this full of life and joy,

This December, maybe I will learn that it’s better to be awkward, bubbly and happy,

than to be quiet and despairing,

This December, maybe I will learn that not trying is worse than failing,

This December, maybe I will realize New Year’s resolutions aren’t fit one, fit all,

And this January, maybe I’ll learn I don’t need to change a thing about myself at all.

Diya Mittai